JM got a job- OFF campus!

Finally, after getting his long deserved permit, his job that he applied for yons ago is still open!

Best part, he only drives 10-20 minutes to & fro, compared to average Americans who drives at least 2-4 hours to work and back.

God is good to JM and me.
Cos December= winter break= no sch= no work= no $ from my side.

BUT JM got a off campus job, which offside my miserable salary though his pay is not alot, but at least its more than campus ones!

Woohoo....

I am strong, though i am weak.

I am down...

Frail emotionally.
Faint physically.
Feeble mentally.
Fragile spiritually.

I wish God will take me away. But i have been waiting. For days. For months. For years.

He didn't.

I doubt He will anytime soon.
And He kept me alive in the midst of all these turmoil.

I looked around today in warm boots and cosy suede jacket.
Surrounded me was wintry, bare trees, squirrels scrambling around for food before the gloomy winter creeps in... and I began to smell the breeze.

I began to breathe.

I realize I am alive, and all is well despite of my weaknesses and insecurities.

I am not strong, but He has kept me.
I am free.

Psalm 25

To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul.

Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.

The troubles of my heart are enlarged;
bring me out of my distresses.

Consider my affliction and my trouble,
and forgive all my sins.

Consider how many are my foes,
and with what violent hatred they hate me.

Oh, guard my soul, and deliver me!
Let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you.

May integrity and uprightness preserve me,
for I wait for you.

Secret desires

I want to.....

1. Have a lifetime supply of Hershey's dark chocolate with rice krispies, without a cost.
2. Straighten my hair permanently, though it is kinda straight now.
3. Be a better girlfriend, i think i neglect my precious too much.
4. Have my own stylo guitar that can be plug in or without.
5. Have only awesome professors like Dr. Swindell and Erin Davis in my entire college life.
   
6. Live without a meal plan on campus because the food sucks BIG TIME, and it's SO expensive. ( I need eat 1/4 of what i pay or less, yet i still need to pay that freaking amount of crap)
7. Dye my hair in patches of outrageous COLOURS.
8. Hope that dumb and confused professors wouldn't correct my British spellings like COLOURS , instead of colors. Or that "learned" is correct and "learnt" is not. And get the grade i deserve in English.
   
9. NOT get bugged by irritating people in the dorms or on campus.
10. Learn to stop hating my parents.
11. Love...
12. Have all the hope in the world to surround me again.
13. Feel like a little girl though I'm way over that age.
14. Trust people.
15. Feel pretty and alive inside again.
16. Learn Salsa and whatever girly dance. I even dreamt about this last night. Maybe i have a hidden talent that i do not know about, though i kinda have 2 left foot? hmmmm.
17. Be a model though people think models are dumb. But it earns big bucks just to look good, who cares if people think you are dumb?
18. Sponsor babies around the world, but currently no budget.
19. Grow taller, then i wouldn't be this compact and fat.
20. Have a collection of spectacles and cool boots...
21. Record an awesome duet with Jay Chou Jie Lun. Or have a personal song written by him to be recorded.
    
22. Be in a band. And this i praise God because i am now in one!
    

God knows my heart's desires...

I know this 2 blogs do not seem to count as much blessings that i have been bestowed on, but i just need to let it out, after all i'm still mere human. And i discovered with a nasty aftertaste in my mouth, that dark chocolate taste like PUKE if it's stale(old), BUT cookies&cream, oreos, and sweet chocolate kinda last.


Yours Sincerely,
Tired and old Ginny...

Trust....

Will be broken.

Vulnerable if you allow so.

Pointless.

Everything Is Meaningless

² “Everything is meaningless,” says the Teacher, “completely meaningless!”

³ What do people get for all their hard work under the sun?

⁴ Generations come and generations go, but the earth never changes.

⁵ The sun rises and the sun sets, then hurries around to rise again.

⁶ The wind blows south, and then turns north. Around and around it goes, blowing in circles.

⁷ Rivers run into the sea, but the sea is never full. Then the water returns again to the rivers and flows out again to the sea.

⁸ Everything is wearisome beyond description.

No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied.

No matter how much we hear, we are not content.

The Teacher Speaks: The Futility of Wisdom

I devoted myself to search for understanding and to explore by wisdom everything being done under heaven. I soon discovered that God has dealt a tragic existence to the human race.

What is wrong cannot be made right.
What is missing cannot be recovered.

¹⁸ The greater my wisdom, the greater my grief.
To increase knowledge only increases sorrow.

Just a random thought- WOW

Pastor Pete always tell people to say WOW backwards.
And as you know, obviously it's WOW too.

So i was thinking tonight, what if other words are used the same way? what if we use them backwards too? Okay, let's try...

Let's starts with AW
( Like so sweet/cute or disappointed in some case)

(We get a gentle response)

Now let's do it backwards = WA
(Like what just happened?! or Say that again!!!)

(We get a shocked response)


VERDICT
NOT APPLICABLE TO ALL WORDS

i know that obviously, just testing for fun la~!

New american slang of the day!!!

I got a Charlie Horse

Means you got cramps, like side of neck, then kanna stuck.

Wahahaha... Americans crack me up.

J.M's OPT

FINALLY...

After almost 1/2 a year of waiting, after numerous chapel card's prayer requests, J.M got his OPT! A permit that allows him to work in America till they give him a permanent work permit.

Thank to GOD cos other schools take less than a month to do apply this permit for international students, but my school, average 1/2 year to do so. So now it's here, it's a miracle...................

Exegesis Paper

God is good.

I did my exegesis paper for yons. And the break down of points is:

1. Introduction- Upon 15
2. Part a-Upon 30
3. Part b and conclusion- Upon 40

Total: 85 points

So i submitted the different part every week. My results:

1. Introduction- 16/15 (Extra 1 point for gd work done)
2. Part a (first time, whole class kinda screwed up)- 20/30 ( class was told to redo)
3. Part a (second time) -27/30
4. Part b & conclusion- 41/40 (Extra 1 point for gd work done)

Total: (including part a's 2nd chance)- 84/85. But he mentioned technically with extra credit, it will be upon 88 for total. But i'm still happy with my results if it's 84/88. Which is great because it meant i only missed less than 5 points.

But to my amazement, I GOT 87/88( 3 points for extra credit)
I don't know how, because it definitely does not add up.

God works wonders.

Thanking God for everything...

I wanna thank god for many things recently.

1. That my bible paper, part A that i didnt do well, 20/30, i was given a chance to redo it with the whole class, and i got 27/30 ;p
2. That i have a smart bf that i can ask anything in regards to studies; Psycholgy, format writing, where to find journals for research, and how to do certain stuff.
3. That i always have someone to turn to if JM is not available > Tara & Phil.
4. That i get along FABULOUSLY with my awesome roomie- Leslie Kohl.
5. That i finally got my psych paper that i have been dreading, done.
6. That i am managing to manipulating all my tasks and 3 jobs in school, without collasping and still having fun at times...
7. That i am getting used to the FREEZING weather without getting sick.
8. That many of my professors like me alright, hence i get extra grace if i screw up an assignment.
9. That i am getting to know more people, making new friends.
10. That the school library is open till midnight almost daily, a gd location to get work done.
11. That i am going to have 2 celebrations for Thanksgiving! Tara's place for dinner, and meeting up with Louis and Sang again at Illinois! WOOOhoooo....

I love you all...

Sociology

Book review results is out- total points available is 45

I got 50!

Why?

Erin Davis said cos of the length and I grasped the material very well..

PRAISE GOD!!!